What began last night carried over to this morning and the rest of the day. The discussion with the ex last night spilled over into today, as I awoke to a new email to scare the hell out of me. Now I fear both of us getting “lawyered up”.
I got to work and the email [...]
Another painfully difficult day.
Moving on…
So I posted a “confession” of sorts on the main blog and told the world about the impending divorce. It was very hard to do and hitting that “publish” button just made me cringe- even after I’d read the post about two dozen times. The outpouring of support since then has been worth that moment [...]
A theme…
How ironic is it that my ex has totally moved on already and has begun a relationship in earnest and the person I thought I wanted to be with has reunited with an ex of their own?
If I wasn’t so tired, I’d laugh. Instead I fear I’ll just start crying again. Maybe tonight will be [...]
The “blowout”…
Had the phone call and had the blowout- the very first time I’ve ever done that in this relationship and maybe the first time in any relationship. I called “bullshit” on the Mexican vacation and the friend just being a “friend”- “nobody believes —– is just your friend!”
I’ve never had quite the same feeling before; [...]
Chichen Itza?
Taking the kids to Chichen Itza? For Christmas? With the “friend”? I don’t get to see the kids for Christmas because you’re planning a “New Family” Christmas in Mexico?
When, exactly, were you going to tell me that A) the “friend” was going and B) that you were planning to leave the country with the kids? [...]
Drunk dial…
Why don’t you want me anymore? Where did I go wrong? How can I get you back?
Why don’t you want me?
I’ve tried so hard. I really have… I promise. I can feel the distance between us getting greater and I can see you vanishing in the distance. Smaller. And smaller. And smaller.
Why don’t you want [...]
Thanks(?)giving…
I have to admit that it was very hard to be thankful today. I tried though, I really did. What was hardest was listening to my daughter talk about my ex’s new “friend” and how they will be going away for Christmas together… like a little family. I can not express how much those words [...]
Starting another blog…
Decided to start another blog and see if I actually use it… unlike the other blogs that are unrelated to my main blog that I never update.
I cried my eyes out tonight while doing the dishes. I just lost it. I’ve known it was coming for some time now and even thought for a second [...]
